I'm a gamer, how about you?

So I have this dilemma...

Well it's not so much a dilemma, as I'm just plain indecisive...

I have a PSP, a 3DS, and a PS Vita... Now because I play video games to escape reality (who doesn't), it never really mattered to me which one I played. However, recently I've started getting this crazy notion that instead of simply playing randomly, I'd like to accomplish something! You know... a trophy here, a 100% complete there, etc. And it's starting to show.

For example, I'm playing a game on my Vita called Disgaea 3. For anyone familiar with the series, you'll know it's a major time sink. I knew this as well, but I'm pretty good at being able to step away from things that suck the life out of you (Greatest accomplishment of this is playing WoW for 3 hours and not picking it back up (Further caveat, I have actually been on a Ragnarok MMO server for 6 years)). However, this time things seem to be a little different. To cut to the chase, I've spent approx. 127 hours on this game, and I have a small ragtag team to show for it. I realized yesterday that my input isn't yielding the results that I wanted. So I looked up some end game guides yesterday and printed a couple out. The amount of work that I have left is not too bad. But there's so much left up to chance. I mean how many times should I have to restart in a "randomly spawning" dungeon until I get what I want or when dealing with a 20% chance of something happening? I realize that the "hardcore" gamers are blanching at my tedious whining. But seriously, level with me here...

Does the title "hardcore" come from doing those damn near impossible tasks while gaming? Or simply allowing your love for gaming to follow you everywhere. Because it's easy to say the number one player on a WoW or MW3 server is "hardcore", but has he ever played Pokemon? Disgaea? Hell, chess? I can honestly say that I shouldn't be considered a casual gamer... But what are the qualifications for a "hardcore" one? :/

Games I'm currently playing:
Vita:
Disgaea 3: Absence of Detention
Sound Shapes
Lumines
Marvel vs Capcom 3
Persona 3 Portable
Gravity Rush
Soon: Ragnarok Odyssey
Soon: Persona 4 Golden
Soon: About 10+ PS1 games when update 1.80 comes out on Tuesday

3DS:
Pokemon Heart Gold
Pokemon Black
Pokemon White
Fire Emblem: Something about another dragon?
Dragon Quest IX
Dragon Quest IV
Final Fantasy Tactics Advance 2
Soon: Kingdom Hears Dream, Drop, Destiny?

PS3:
Call of Duty 4: MW2 and MW3
Fallout 3 and Fallout: New Vegas
Ninja Gaiden 3 (Don't play if you have issue with losing 7 hours you can never get back)
Dynasty Warriors 7
MvC3 (again)
(Everything else is back at home, since I'm deployed right now ^_^;;)
Soon: Mass Effect 2 & 3

PC:
Starcraft
Ragnarok (Online and Offline)
Age of Empires
Chess [I LOVE CHESS! >:D]
Steam Collection (This is probably the only thing I'm bad about playing)
Minecraft

Looking back over that, I'm surprised that I've played that many games but it's because I love gaming so much that I keep wanting to play more and more games. My PS3 gaming is not as extensive as I'd like it to be but that will all change in about 2 months. I also have my PSP with me, but I've neglected it since the Vita allows me to download some of the PSP games I once had. And I'll also be adding the Xbox to my list of games when I get back home.

Looking back over what I typed in the beginning, I think this is less about wanting to solve a dilemma and more about having some sort of recognition/closure to what type of gamer I am. I dunno how many hardcore gamers will ever look at this, but your thoughts would be much appreciated.

Ciao! ^_^

Misplaced fury and verbal diarrhea

This post is going to be short despite the title making it seem otherwise.

I want to scream and yell a million things at a million people but that would only cause mass panic and I'd be hoarse for months on end. Honestly, I'd like to be able to draw up the courage to say/do what needs to be said/done when the time comes. I choose not to because I'm scared. I'm scared of being seen doing the right thing...

How fucked up is that?

Society contains so many aspects, large and small, that I'd just like to sit down and dissect, piece by piece. The former is a prime example. Why is it that people are afraid to do the right thing? Fear of acceptance? Fear of reprisal? Fear in general? Where in being brought up in society did the association of the emotion fear get coupled with the societal virtue of doing the right thing?

That's enough for this evening... the room I'm sitting in is extremely too cold and I'm starting to ash (which is pretty sad)

Til next time